Growth!

I've been sitting at my desk for 2 hours trying to find some inspiration to write about something. All week, I've been thinking about what to say to you all. I was serious about being consistent. I've seen and felt many things that the enemy was trying to use to convince me that I don't need to keep doing this. But I couldn't bring myself to listen.

I was scrolling through some old notes on my phone and I came across one that said, "The Book Club's Prayer List". In 2016, back when I worked at Humana, my friends, Sydney and Ashley, wanted to start a book club. Chile, I think I read one book 🥴😅. But they read like 2-3 lol. But anyway, we made a note that had all of our prayer requests in it. I found it today while looking for inspiration...and baby I found it!

When I read over it, I saw the growth in each of us. Especially myself. I sent it to them and asked them if they remembered it. I asked them if they felt like they had grown from this place. We all agreed that we had but there were still a few things that we were still working on. I was so glad to have found that note and the revelation I got from it.

I decided not to look at the things that I haven't accomplished, but instead the things that I had grown from. Past relationships, certain behaviors, being more aware and sure of myself and being more familiar with the ways of God. There were some things that I was praying for that were just not in God's will and I am completely content with that today! That's major for me lol.

Furthermore, seeing this prayer list has shown us to be gracious with ourselves - and for me, others too. Because we cannot be gracious to others if we are not first gracious with ourselves. I told them, I think God gives me grace just about every hour lol. I know that I am not perfect and I am very hard on myself - as I am with others. Now, I have grace in some areas, but not in every area. Just being honest. I can't get free, otherwise.

As we were discussing the growth, Syd said "First of all it feels so much longer than 5 years? 😬 I think it was refreshing to read too because [it's] been so long, I forgot what was stressing me at the time. Lol and there’s things on that list that I really didn’t fully resolve until this year. Which reminds me that progress is slow and reminds me to be more graceful with not just others, but myself as well. I want to make a new list and kinda address each issue more aggressively/more intentionally? But yes I never really noticed/thought about how I’ve changed or worked through until I read that note lol". I love that she was able to see this prayer list and notice that for herself. I believe that having more grace for yourself is the best way to show God's love - because again if we don't have it for ourselves, then how can we pour it out to others?

Just as Ashley said, "I think this was perfect timing"! and I couldn't agree more! I needed this today. I told them that today had been kind of hard but seeing this list and the revelations that came from it had definitely given me life and I thank God for that! I thank God for the bond that we share(d) and how this has given each of us fuel to move throughout life so much easier.

----- Reading over this has shown me that this is literally the epitome of Sistas Healing Eternally. God has shown me again what He has called me to do! I believe these blogs will grow into a sisterhood. Women from all over the world, coming together to uplift each other and we all walk in the healing that God has already placed inside of us...so that we can go out into our communities and be all that God has called us to be!

Sis, I want us all to be free from whatever the enemy may have you bound with! The Lord is my shepherd and I shall not want for anything! God has made us in His image. God does not lack for anything. He created heaven and earth. So I believe that if the God of Heavens created me, heaven, and earth, then why would He have me drown in illness, stress, or poverty....? He doesn't want that. Jesus prayed, "in earth, as it is in heaven." In heaven, there is no lack! He has given us the keys. Gen 1:26 says He has placed dominion inside of us. He has always wanted us to rule over earth. But over time, we give the enemy the power to rule over earth. It's time to take our power and authority back. It's time, sis, it's time. Take your bed up and walk in your healing.